The Decision

Last November I applied to 9 University's hoping that at least one would admit me. The 9 were: (in order of desire)

UCLA- because its like one of those things I always sort of thought would be cool to see and try. It has a reputation and it is just like this metaphor for success in California. It carries this instant respect around. I wanted it purely for bragging rights. Its petty and superficial but it is the truth.

The Ohio State University- because my Dad was born and lived in Ohio and he watches a lot of OSU football but he never went or anything, again just felt like going.

UCSB- Well this made sense to me since I live fairly close to it and it has a beach, and I could probably still work where I work and it's a UC.

*From here down were my most realistic hopes. I really didn't think I was qualified for the first 3.

Cal State Northridge- Pretty much the same reason as UCSB except it doesn't have a beach and though its not a UC it is still a decent school.

Cal State Fullerton- My brother lives near by and I didn't think I'd get into the first 4 so this was the first on the 2nd best list.

UC-Irivine-I have some friends who go here, and I really like them so I wanted to be closer to them if I could.

UC-Merced- My college counselor literally said, "If you have a pulse and 60 units you'll get into Merced." To that I said it be my last UC hope, here's $60.

Cal State Long Beach- I knew a girl who transferred there the year before and I liked her ex boyfriend so I wanted to see if I could get in, therefore justifying that I was just as smart as her and just as worthy of her ex boyfriend. I know, it was totally ridiculous but totally true and her ex boyfriend  turned out to not be worthy of me.

Cal State Channel Islands- My father was very insistent on this. They don't even carry my major.


So as a result I was accepted into 8 of the 9.  Which one rejected me? -Long Beach!
I guess it just proves that I'm not as smart as that one boys ex girlfriend. No wonder we never dated. It is for the best, I just had to choose between my top 4. Yup, I got into UCLA and OSU and UCSB and Northridge. I threw out Northridge and I visited UCSB but Isla Vista just doesn't suit me. My Dad took me on a trip to Ohio and it was wonderful. I mean it was so so beautiful and grand and historic. I mean so many positive adjectives to describe it but UCLA...I mean UCLA. C'mon. So I went to this weird Scholars day and it actually made hate the place. Like I feel like I wasted my whole day and now I can never get that day back.

Still though, I guess the good guy never wins because I submitted my Intent to Register to UCLA like 5 days ago? I don't remember.

I didn't tell anybody because the most important person I wanted to be excited for me was exactly the opposite. My Dad is just really disappointed I'm going to UCLA, not OSU and no matter how much it shouldn't matter, his opinion on my life matters a lot. I mean so many other people are proud of me, but no offense to everyone else in my life, it amounts to nothing when my father isn't proud of me. I guess that Patriarchal set of beliefs crept in somewhere in life.  (If any of you who know my Dad, please don't call him out on this. I don't want any drama. Thank you.)

I also didn't feel like telling anybody because it creates this instant pressure. It's like all eyes are on me and I don't want to let anybody down. I hate disappointing people and I think everyone knowing I transferring to UCLA makes me feel like I have a set quota to meet. Maybe I'm thinking too highly on myself. I don't feel as excited as I think I should. I haven't really seen the campus and I only know one person who goes there. I've never even watched a sports game with them involved. I'm just hoping I'll be excited soon and will like it when I get there.

So to my UCLA Alumnus Uncle Rick and all the other Facebook friends. That's my decision. I guess I could have just written " Going to UCLA" as a status update but I don't use this thing much and thought it might be fun.

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