You know sometimes I don't realize how great I have it. I mean I've always fared well because I've never been impoverished but never been too wealthy either. My finances are always right in the middle but my friendships have not. When I was growing up I seriously didn't have any friends.
So I've been ok in the friend department. I mean I know a lot of people and they know me but I can't really constitute them as friend friends. But to me a true friend is someone you be totally yourself around and vise versa. It’s someone that picks up on your mood and has total patience with everything you do. It’s just someone who cares about you. Its crazy to think about but I mean how many people do you know who CARE about you? Who go the extra step and say, you don't seem like yourself what's wrong? Who says let's hangs out tonight or how was work today?
I have had a few Friend Friends, one in elementary school, one in middle school, two or three in high school. One from high school we're still pretty good friends but have grown apart since we live far away from each other. If you answered more than 3 then you’re only lucky golden nugget. (I'm a lucky nugget!)
texted me “Where are you?” I didn’t text her to tell her I wasn’t coming for lunch because I didn’t think she cared that much about my whereabouts or really cared about meeting up. I texted her back
“Oh, I just didn’t feel like going to class today.”
“Are you okay?”
“Yeah, fine just didn’t feel like it.”
“Okay see you later.”
I don’t know why her questions surprised me so much, but I remember thinking, none of my friends have ever asked that before. I mean it’s a perfectly average common question but it hit me like a ton of bricks. Maybe it is because after high school I feel like I lost all my friends. They all moved away and I stayed home. I feel like I've had to start over finding new people to hang out with, and finding other avenues. But last October (or November) I feel like I got a little lucky and from that day on I think I knew I had a friend, like a true friend. I feel lucky in a lot of ways because I feel like I have someone who is literally RIGHT THERE in my town, like 1 intersection and 1 left, then 1 right turn away. It may seem stupid because I’m still surprised all the time when she listens to my weird interests. I’m not used to having someone besides my mother want to see me and call me and talk to me. I've had a really good half year so far. It’s a weird time in my life, Scouts honor...
...but Yeah, I’ve got it pretty good.
*I wrote this last Thursday and I don’t remember why I was feeling so sentimental but I’m still grateful everyday for the awesome people in my life who help remind me of such powerful moments.
Tomorrow I’m getting my wisdom teeth pulled. I’m a little nervous because I’ve never been put to sleep before. I’ve never even had an I.V. tube or anything. But this whole procedure is a good thing. I’ve needed to get these teeth removed for about a year now. One is actually trying to poke it’s little head out. I feel so anxious about it. My coworker Amber she said she felt like DAVID AFTER THE DENTIST. And I’m totally going to be obnoxious and ask to keep my teeth. They are my teeth and I have the right to take those little buggers home and inspect them. So I can’t eat after 4am which will be hard for me since I eat all 3 meals of the day between 4 and 4:45am. Just a normal day in Kim town.
Speaking of eating, I need to work harder at it. I went to give blood last Thursday and I denied for the 5th time in my life. I’ve overcome the loop hole of being 5’4 and 120 pounds. My heart wasn’t racing, I wasn’t hungry. None of the tell tale signs of blood donor rejection. This one was a curve ball, LOW IRON. I’m no vegetarian. I love my red meat and cheese, and all the things that contribute to rising green house gas emission via farting. So I went away feeling defeated AGAIN! I’m going to try again next week and show them. They will take my B- whole blood and they will enjoy it and I will rejoice in their defeat/win with them! Muahahah muahahha!
I will try to keep you updated with all my wisdom teeth removal happenings, maybe even picture if you’re purrrretty and leave me a comment below!
I think I came into post this wanting to write something else but I don’t remember.
G’Night Ya’ll!
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