I skipped yesterday. I was just too tired to turn on my computer and type up a blog post.

I'm taking a break in between cleaning my house. I'm having a birthday party tomorrow and I have so much to do! But I don't want to bore you (because it is very boring) about my cleaning adventures. I want to chat with you about being 21. I've only been 21 less than a week and I haven't been carded, twice. Do I look that old? Do I have a truthful face? Am I so seductive that I can get whatever I want? Is the Pope Catholic?

The worst part of it all is that on my birthday I wasn't carded. Hello, its the only time in my entire life that I will obligingly show my drivers license. Then my mom and I went to dinner at this Mexican restaurant and I order a margarita and what happens? No carding. I'm sure when I'm 22 I'll be carded every time.

Yesterday I went to my good friend Justin's concert. He doesn't play rock music, he's more of the classical/jazz sort of guy. The concert was great, and I saw my 8th grade History teacher there! What a shock! I don't know if she truly recognized me, but she said she did. So we chatted and it was lovely to see someone I loved so much when I was 13 years old.

Today I saw: James and The Giant Peach. I put it on my Netflix instant queue and watched it whilst cleaning.
Today I heard: Talk radio on AM 64o.
Today I touched: All the toilets in the house
Today I smelled: the intoxicating fumes of bleach and vinegar.
Today I tasted: a divine Iced Coffee.


k

BEDA #4 Mushy Brains.

I have this theory that my desk directly reflects my brain activity at any certain point in time. Right now my mind is a mess. I have so many thoughts and reminders in my head that it feels so full and squished. My desk is the same way. I have all these little things I put on it so that I will remember and not lose them. For example, I have a little button reminding me to sew it back on the jacket it fell from. I have measuring tape for measuring the space my dorm room will be.* I also have things I care about. I have a picture my family sent of themselves in my birthday card. I have all my birthday gifts on my desk. I don't want to put any of them away because I want to remember to write thank you notes. Then there is the paper issue. I accumulate so much paper on my desk that I need to hire someone to go paperless. Papers to shred, papers to file, papers to reply, to do lists, jokes, and junk all litter my little corner of my room. The only corner that is paid the least attention to but deserves the most. What i find strange is that its summer! I would have thought I would be more organized. All I have to do is organize and maintain my room, but no. Its messier than when I'm in school. Does this mean that my brain is more function able in school? I hope so. It would be scary if it was more mushy during the fall, winter, and spring rather then the summer.

There is so much to do. I have to plan for my party on Saturday. I haven't really made a solid start. Its Wednesday...gahh!! I'm most anxious nobody will have fun...maybe my messy brain will think of something.

Today I saw: an advanced screening of "Little Fockers" which is the third installment of the "Meet the Parents" series. I hope its the last one because I think we've had enough.
Today I heard: A new band called Anberlin. They have a cool sound. I impulsively** bought their CD "New Surrender."
Today I tasted: The sweetness of a free cinnamon swirl coffee cake from Starbucks.
Today I smelled: the sweet mildew of what the ET and Peter Pan ride smells like. Its one of my favorite smells, not matter how gross that is.
Today I touched: a rolly polly trying to take refuge in my stockroom. Little did he know that its much more dangerous in there than outside.

Happy surprise of the day: I found out Jakob Dylan is the lead singer of The Wallflowers. Totally random right? I had no idea and here I thought he was a new artist but he's been around for years!

I see you.

k

*I want to find the measurements for my closet at UCLA so that I can create a mock one here.

**I also impusivley purchase The Wallflowers CD, The Eurythmics, and 20 other 80's pop singles. :/ I just couldnt help myself!

BEDA #3 I'm throwing my fro-yo at MJ

I'm a little annoyed. I finished reading Maureen Johnson's novel Scarlett Fever tonight and it ended with such a great tall cliff hanger. I almost feel like I got the copy that is missing the last chapter. Here I am super excited about Scarlett and Max...then Eric*...then Max walks away...then the end? This novel barley came out this year. Can you imagine how long with it will take her to write the 3rd installment? I mean she is writing a whole new novel before that. RAWR!!!

*changes complaining bracelet to other wrist*
Anyways, today was pretty boring.. work + yoga+pasta= day

Here are my senses for the day:
Today I saw: myself doing yoga in a mirror with 20 other people. Then I fell out of my position because this girl had this funny look on her face.
Today I heard:  my brothers voice on my telephone. We had a conversation about the 3rd arm you grow when you turn 21.
Today I touched: the water in the swimming pool.
Today I tasted: Ben and Jerry's Cherry Garcia fro-yo.
Today I smelled: my moms chocolate chip cookies!


Things I want to accomplish tomorrow:
1. Start the Hunger Games series
2. switch my tickets for the concert
3.have an extremely positive and productive day at work.
4.Get in on time for something I'll tell you about tomorrow.
5. clean my desk off.

k

*The whole Eric thing happens, which I don't really believe because the whole scenario seems silly and unrealistic. I mean he'll probably end up with Chealsea. *fingers crossed*

21 bottles of beer on the wall

Today was my 21st birthday. I'd have to say it was a pretty good day. I didn't do anything crazy. I didn't blackout. I don't think I was even drunk. Sorry to disappoint you.

I actuality, I feel a little boring. I want to be crazy and hyper and overactive but in my heart its like I can't.

My day started off with my dad bringing me McDonald's breakfast. I appreciated the gesture. Then I watched some Doctor Who and messed around on the Internet. Around 1pm my dad and I went to The Cheesecake Factory for lunch. When looking at the menu I wanted my first legal alcoholic beverage to be something memorable. I was pushed into ordering this gross drink called "Georgia Peach." Some of you may like it but I don't really care for vodka. I do love Rum though... :)

We did several things afterwards like, visit Sephora, and Best Buy and Target. I went home and fell asleep because I'm a lightweight and vodka makes me sleepy.  It was nice/awkward/clumsy being asked for my id.

Around 5:30 my friends Anisa and Vanessa were going to pick me up to go to dinner. I know the time is really early but I'm old and Anisa has to be home by a decent hour. Well we missed out 6pm dinner reservation by 45 minutes. Anisa and Vanessa didn't end up coming till 6pm and then I led them astray from the restaurant. I mean I wasn't really annoyed at Anisa and Vanessa because they were late, I just felt a little embarrassed because I knew the assistant manager at the restaurant.

Dinner was at the Melting Pot. I do recommend it. It's a really different way to eat and I really liked it. It's a little pricier but every once in awhile it would probably be really fun to go to.

Now I'm home and in my pajamas. I'm sleepy and a little sad.
I'm sad because work is changing and I'm not used to it. I'm so attached to my life at the store that I get grumpy with every small change, every little difference. I have to let go of it and realize that it isn't important. I can't be important to me, because all it ever does is make me sad. I want to be happy. I want to be fun. I want to be nice and I want people to care. I don't think working in the stock room has made anybody care about me. It has probably made them like me less. I hate that. I demand from myself to change that.

To end my post I'm going to "borrow" this idea from a blog by Hayley G. Hoover over at The Hayleylujah Chorus about the things she sensed today.

Today I saw: a new video by Zach Anner on YouTube. I found him late last night through John Mayer's tumblr. He's really funny. I mean this disability isn't funny but HE is a comedian.
Today I smelled: a pretty new lotion my mom got me for my birthday. Its called Lost In Fantasy.
Today I tasted: A wonderful cocktail called the Love Martini. Wow..like so good. I think I'm going to like this year.
Today I heard: We the Kings. I bought one for their albums last night. I really like theirs sound.
Today I touched: my dinner with my fingers.

I also watched this video by Alex Day or nerimon from YouTube who said that he writes 5 things down he wants to accomplish. He also does this thing with a bracelet to stop complaining. I really like that idea because I complain a lot and I feel like I need to change my mind set on things. I need to stop stressing out everyday and just let things go...

Ok See you tomorrow.

k. xoxo (gossip girl)

BEDA #1 Sassy but Classy

I'm going to try this thing this month called BEDA or Blog Every Day in August.

As I am thinking about it I have done a lot in July. Let's have a July recap:

July 7th I went to a wizard rock concert which was really fun!!I saw the Parselmouths, Lauren Fairweather of the Moaning Myrtles, Justin Finch-Fletchley, The Whomping Willows, and ALL CAPS! I was most excited to meet Kristina Horner. I have to admit that I have a bit of a fan girl crush on her. I've been following her life on Youtube, and Twitter, and Facebook, and Dailybooth...and now I'm really creepy.

That SATURDAY on July 10th I went to this little convention called VidCon! It was really fun too. It was a conference for people who love online video. I was really nervous about going because I was going alone and I'm new at venturing outside the county alone. Once I found where I got my ticket and checked in I thought to myself, "What now?" I didn't really know what to do so I just went into the main hall and watched this guy I didn't recognize sing a sad song. Then HANK GREEN came out and I knew I was in the right place. I mainly watched all the main programming on the schedule and I hated the breaks in between each speaker. It felt like multiple recess times and every break I felt increasingly more and more lonely. I didn't really know what to do. I realized that I don't watch as much YouTube as I thought and didn't recognize so many people, whom it seemed that everybody flocked to for pictures and autographs. I did meet Wheezy Waiter and that was awkward because I didn't know what to say or how to be myself around him.
When the lunch break came around I had to get out because I could only walk around the little conference center so many times without looking like I was in a marathon. I walked across the street to this mall and I decided to call my friend Krista K. As I was talking to her I turn a corner and I run smack into this unknown YouTuber Gemllama! Her real name is Gretchen, but I didn't remember that,  and I totally freaked her out because when I saw her I screamed OMG! Your gemllama! and she is so little and was innocently holding her Baja Fresh and there I was this sad lonely VidCon attendee scaring her. She was really nice and said Thank you for watching my videos. When I stopped being obnoxious and she walked away I remembered all these questions I could have asked her and ended up not seeing her the rest of the day...it always happens that way.

July 19th-24 was a crazy week. I drove to El Capitan State Beach a bunch between my work days to stay with my family. I love that park. Its probably my favorite place to be besides my bed. I mean it beats Disneyland! I know, crazy right? Hardly anything beats Disneyland but this place does. Its just so scenic and I always have wonderful memories when I'm there. <3 I want to go back already!

The 24th was a crazy day because I had totally forgot that I signed up to be a Ventura County Fair volunteer weeks earlier. I showed up to the Photography building and I learned how to receive and process the incoming entries. I really liked it. I met so many people dropping off their photos and I loved chatting with them about where they took their pictures and hearing how they took it etc. I mean they talked my ear off. It was like their new born baby. They were very nervous, and I would be too. Entering my work to be judged by professionals but then even more harshly judged by the thousands of people who come to the fair and gawk at them. I've been to the fair now for a couple days and I have to say I agree with I most  of the placings....

On the 29th I went to my UCLA orientation. It was A LONG day. I walked a lot and sat a lot and listened a lot and talked a lot. I spent something like 6 hours searching for classes and trying to plan a scheduled. The first schedule I did my Orientation counselor Nick was like, No no no no, because this, this, and this. Try again. I was like UGH!!! Make it stop. I missed dinner because I was searching for open classes when 90% of them are closed or wait listed. I did end up finding 3 and I'm happy. I even feel like I made a loop hole, so I've already beat the system!  I met these two cool girls named Hannah and Lila. It was really nice because we were all in the same major/orientation group and they like wanted to wait for me. It was such a new phenomenon for me. They won't be living on campus next year like me, but hopefully we'll be friends. *fingers crossed*

This leads me up to July 31st which was SUPER fun!  I went to a BBQ with my friend Krista for her/our friend Brandy's birthday. On the way I found out that my work friend Krista D. was having her birthday with Brandy too. When we got there I knew so many people! It was awesome. I had a great time! We played games and ended up talking a lot. I laughed so much my stomach hurt. It ended up a little badly though because a careless decision of mine to smear icing on Ruben's face ended up with my face and a full plate of cake on it. It wasn't even by Ruben but some guy I barley met that night. I had to laugh at it because making the situation ugly is just too diva-ish and I wasn't about to start a problem on someone elses birthday. Anyways I love having really full weekends because they feel longer somehow.

In 2 hours and something minutes I will be turning 21. I'm really nervous. I don't think I'll be one of those crazy drunk girls. Its just not my style. Sassy but Classy is my style. I don't really normally like my birthday but instead of being against it, I am going to try to embrace it. Me and Krista K are having a birthday party at my house this weekend. I hope people show up and have fun. As for me, tomorrow I want to watch some Doctor Who, read some books, drink ridiculous amounts of coffee and go out to dinner with my friends. Maybe my mom will buy me lunch, but I won't push my luck.

See you tomorrow!!

k